Writing Wholeness

On Unraveling:

Maybe you need failure

Maybe it reminds you what's important to you

Maybe in the midst of yearning and longing and dreaming and wanting

You let everything around you

Unravel

So that you can put it all back together

For the hundredth time

Because you remember that it's worth it

Only after it's in tatters around your feet

Maybe

Fitting the pieces back together

Is the win you need

To forget the loss

All the bits of your identity

Thrown into chaos

Ruin

While your back was turned

Eyes fixed on hallucinations

Horizons

On different planets

Stars

In other galaxies

Forgetting to water the plants

Around my own feet

Brought back to Earth inch by inch

He told me I'm pretty

Three days before he died

She begged me to stay on the phone

Two days before she made her significant attempt

I failed two papers

Realizing four days past the due date

I was too late

Shouldering the torment and the agony

As one

Just as before

Just as it will always be

The scene of wreckage sinks

Into the recesses of my awareness

I remember

Time to rebuild

Alone again