Writing Wholeness

On my favorite animal:

I can measure the time since I’ve last felt her breath on my neck

By the angle at which I carry myself through this world

Standing taller

Straighter

I am older

And wiser

Than the last time she was released

The low rumble of a chuckle

Accompanied by the acrid smell of sulfur and burning hair

Scars and teeth and eyes black

Not empty

But bottomless

Endless

Something primal inside me

Made separate to keep those I love

Safe

In between the spaces that punctuate all of the sentences

I swore were love

But were merely

Men

We both know why she’s here

Where I once trembled in her presence

I now collapse into relief

He’s hers now

He read the signs

“Beware of dog”

“Venemous”

“Biohazard”

And still decided to unlock the cage

She’s starving

A ritualistic fast

Broken

By the consumption of his very soul

I’ve whispered to her

The exact coordinates

To his heart

God save him

Because I’m done trying